I need a nap

I think caretaking is wearing me down. It happens. It's happened before for me. But I kind of snapped while at the Ranch over an issue that probably didn't require a melt down. I elected to walk away while I could and found myself thinking that maybe I should step back from volunteering at the Ranch for a bit. I'm still pondering that. A sabbatical. I've been going there twice a week for nearly three years now. They've made some changes that I don't much like and, of course, have no control over. Having had a couple of years more experience than the people making the changes and being, by the way, old and not thrilled to have things randomly change anyway, I'm not reacting well.

I'm thinking about it still. Here is one reason to keep going:



There was a time when I could go to the Ranch, walk the dogs, and go home. Now it seems that I keep interacting with people when what I want is dogs.

The way of the world.

I'm increasingly having problems with my knee. It is fine playing pickleball. Never bothers me enough so I even notice. But if I'm just standing or sometimes walking it aches and continues to be in pain for a long time. I'm taking more pain drugs to manage it. And got a cart yesterday while shopping when I didn't really need one but needed the support.

I've got an appointment to see the ortho but it is six weeks out.

Annoying all around.